Up To The Surface

  Trying to have a baby on purpose is a lot more nerve wracking  Than   finding out you’re pregnant when it was unplanned.  Maybe others will disagree with me, But trying to plan it adds a whole new level of “emotional roller coaster”  to the process. When you find out you’re having a baby out of the blue, The baby is already there and now you just have to  Come to grips with the reality that you will be a parent Holding a delicate, fragile live baby in another eight months. When you start decorating a nursery  Creating a registry  And telling all of your friends, It can actually make it exciting  when it had been terrifying before. Now you want to have another baby. You actually want that, as in “baby fever”. You have to think about timing- Where you’ll be in your job or your home buying plan And how old your first child will be, etc etc. You also have to think about timing in the sense of  “what time of the month is it?” Because you ca...

  I had originally never planned to have children. Though I never had set in stone a layout for my future With world travel or a dream career at the center, I did write the map to accommodate a child-free life. Just after I turned 20, I realized that I desired marriage. I felt incomplete without a husband. I did intend to land and keep a “real” job And with the income from it, Buy a nice home, comforts and regular vacations. I wanted to see some parts of the world, But I didn’t feel like I would die if I didn’t ever get to Stand atop the Eiffel tower, backpack through Europe Or explore the streets of Tokyo.  I just wanted to have a photo album with a lot of pictures Of myself and the husband lounging on tropical beaches outside of luxury resorts. I made it all the way through my 20’s without becoming pregnant. I knew my future husband at 21 and was married to him at 26, But took pride in having a flat stomach and enviable body When most of my peers had stretch marks and paunch...